看著鏡子裡的自己　我想著　這是我自己嗎...

渙散的眼神　略呈臃腫的臉　幾天沒有刮的鬍子
很短卻有點亂的頭髮　還有日漸寬廣的身軀...

我快要不認識我自己了...

每天花很多時間　想著自己到底是誰
鏡子裡的那個人　我應該很快就會知道
可是　為什麼　我還要想那麼久...

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第一次　週末留在宿舍
晚上　已經收到家裡的金牌令
我　說我要洗那已經堆積如山的衣服
必須　留在這裡解決
家人說　帶回來洗就好了啊

唉　我就是不想背著四天份的衣服回家啊...很可怕耶...

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這裡的週末　沒有燈火管制　沒有點名　沒有管理
除了晒衣場懸掛的制服之外　其他　和男生宿舍　完全相同
只是這裡是簡略版本罷了
有熱水　有廁所　有洗衣機　有電視　有電扇　有飲水機
就這樣~

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沒有所謂的食物供應　一切自行出外打點
昨天　買了魯味　很久沒吃的鹽酥雞　還有珍珠奶綠
量不多　卻已經讓我吃完後　寸步難行
顯然　食量已經小了很多　很多
即使魯味和鹽酥雞那邊　我點了很多的蔬菜
但是　就是整個飽到不行...

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同樣　是在台北這個碗裡
要我說出我不想回家的理由是什麼
我想　就是自由
如果家裡給我的感覺很自由　我為什麼不回家呢
每次的回家　都是天人交戰的感覺
畢竟那種氣氛　那個感覺　讓我很有壓力
而　回家的感覺　不應該如此...
於是　或多或少因為這個原因　我留在宿舍
除了眼前掛滿的貼身衣物　我想　這就是我留在這裡的理由吧...

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鏡子裡的　我想應該就是　逃避的我
難怪　怎麼看　我都不認識自己了

鏡子會說話　不是嗎
讓我知道真正的自己　是怎樣

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Mirror Mirror　　　　M2M

Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me
 
Why don't I like the girl I see
The one who's standing right in front of me
Why don't I think before I speak
I should have listened to that voice inside me
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
To say the kind of things I said last night
 
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me
 
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
 
Why did I let you walk away
When all I had to do was say I'm sorry
I let my pride get in the way
And in the heat of the moment I was to blame
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
Now in the cold light of the day I realize
 
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me
 
If only wishes could be dreams
And know my dreams could come true
There would be two us standing here in front of you
If you could show me that someone that I used to be
Bring back my baby, my baby to me
 
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back

Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me
 
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me

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如果我真的有這麼個鏡子
我希望　他把以前那個自信的我　找回來...