Daddy just told me, you have better know what you ve decided!
sigh...of course i know what am i doing!!
sometimes i don t tell you anything, it doesn t mean i have nothing to say
these two years living home, tell the truth, i got lots of pressure.
i have to face a future that i don t know
all just because of a decision i made before two years
it s just like a gamble, but the bet is FUTURE!
I quit the job, studying for master degree, just wanna offer you and mommy a better life.
the belief i thought at that time is just this reason
am i wrong?
not only you, i also have a pile of loan from the bank!!
since senior hight school, university to graduate school, i also do!!
sometimes, i would think that...i also just wanna be a normal daughter as other family, i can do what i would like to do
i even could not give up the opportunity to studying aboard in AUS at that time.
if i don t need to consider of the loan that would deduct from my salary, maybe living in taipei is not problem for me!! i can do whatever i want, don t have pressure from family
many times, many sometimes, i would think about these...
nevertheless, just think
i never complain these words to you and mommy, even sister
i don t wanna let you feel that i blame on you
but i m really tired of this
just would like to relax and think about what i have to do in the next step..
about three years ago, i saw a korean soap drama
the actress who called Crystal, she is so vain
therefore she betray the actor and would like to marry the other man who is rich
but the end of this story, the actress and actor are still together,
she said a actress line that i still remember till now
"i have tied so many punching bag already, so it should not be a problem adding one more!"
so, i also add one more on my leg
however, this decision is really right?
will i fall down if it s really too heavy?
what should i release this pressure on my mind?
Sometimes we make a decision depends on a moment, and this moment is somehow critical.
Nevertheless, it s always difficult to pick THIS moment!
sigh...
I just wanna be happy from a simple life.
Is this hard?
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