安全感 Secure
安全感 Secure
Dear Roger:
Few days ago we talked about the Secure, and I talked to you, I don t knew how to said to you!
I was afraid I willed cried, you said, you were afraid about the woman cried, so I just written to you!
And you were not saw me cried.
1. When I was a kid, in the Hak-kâ family was love the boy more than the girl, at home, I knew what my position is, everything always my brother first, and my brother first then me! When I have the memories, when I was a little girl, my brother were hit me, it was no reason, I don t knew why, every time when I cried, I always hope someone willed help me, but my parents always shout to talked me, don t cried too loud and the neighbor were hearings, so I learn to cried not make a sound, just cried silence.....When they were worked finish, when they coming home, the neighbor willed talked the brother hit me again.
Until the high school was nothing change, and my brother were more good to hit me, used the hand hit my face and used the feet hit my body, I just deal with those situation, until when I was worked in the company then him stop.
2. When I was in love, just hunger for more love, when love someone, I always given all my heart, but they just treat me like trash, until I don t have anything, love.money.body.....that was make me felt empty.I just felt lose everything. I can t take this anymore. so I stop to found it! Every time when I want to hold something, every time my hand have nothing left.
3. When I got married, I though I hold the happiness, actually that was not what I want, at first, he is nice to me, but when we married, everything was change! And I found I was wrong, he was not has responsibility, and shout to me and my baby, the baby was shocked and cried, and I was shocked too. and there was nothing has good result or something was broken by the baby, he willed throw away the things, make so much sound, the baby and me was shocked. Everyday I saw his face, afraid there was nothing he like , he has bad tamper, I had to admit, my tamper was not good too, but I would not like this don t have any reason.
Above the three reason, I say, I am not have secure person, maybe I am not see someone can give me the secure, maybe I should not too pessimistic, I should thinking more optimistic, maybe the one is appear.
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